Maybe my memory has betrayed me but
you and I were never this calculated.
We would literally just chill and
vibe on whatever, wherever…
Mostly in bed or on the couch because
we’re both homebodies, yet still it was easy.
Can we go back to that?
Can we not overthink us?
Can we just get back to good vibes,
grandiose laughs and great sex?
Our chemistry was palpable
But even with all there was between us
We still didn’t have enough together
We just couldn’t seem to connect
It was like the electricity both
drew us together and kept us apart.
That don’t want get off the phone,
Thinking about you 24/7,
Cant wait to see you but when I do
Its just not long enough type of feeling…
I just need to be in his presence right now.
Laugh at his sarcasm, feel butterflies when
He merely smiles in my direction
And get lost in the aroma of his essence.
I keep getting the feeling that I should be capturing this moment, this experience. I’ve never done anything so daring in the name of romance and possibly love. I’m nervous as heck. The butterflies in my stomach seem drunk. Fluttering about in all different directions. But among the chaos I still feel a sense of peace and calm. I trust him with my safety and dare I say heart? So here I am embarking on this new journey, adventure. I don’t know where this will lead but I want these words to frame this moment in time. Who knows, maybe I’ll be reading this to our kids one day.
haven’t felt them in quite some time
Found myself continuously sabotaging
potential relationships simply because
I compared them all to you.
I yearned for the authentic chemistry we shared
minus the infidelity.
Realized at some point I’d have to master your trade
and no longer consider your feelings
as you so easily did with mine.
Your words always drew me back in
But your unwavering actions has led me astray.
Well I found that chemistry we once shared in another
I forgot how beautiful the feeling was, is..
Now I’m basking in the warmth and joy
of something we once shared.