Why

Why did we ruin us by thinking?
Why didn’t we just continue to feel?!
Now every text is calculated and
to be honest I’m terrible at math!
Trying to fill the spaces you occupied
just days ago is emotionally laboring.
I want to go back to the moments of tranquil
intimacy we shared that felt so easy.
Like just laying across your lap or chest
as we vibe to our mutual love of music.
Or laughing uncontrollably to some
corney joke only you and I find funny.
Why did we ruin us by thinking?
Why didn’t we just continue to feel?!

Run

Everything you’ve said
makes me want to runaway.
You don’t want a relationship &
you’re not sure about marriage.
I don’t know how to be
in this space without hope.
I don’t know how to stay in
a moment without a future.
This feels like a set up…
An experience for you,
And heartbreak for me.

Vibes

Maybe my memory has betrayed me but
you and I were never this calculated.
We would literally just chill and
vibe on whatever, wherever…
Mostly in bed or on the couch because
we’re both homebodies, yet still it was easy.
Can we go back to that?
Can we not overthink us?
Can we just get back to good vibes,
grandiose laughs and great sex?