We have to remember that we all have different journeys and being in relationship with someone in any capacity requires us to slow down and sometimes stop completely to allow them to take their exits while also not missing yours. You’ll still walk the same path at times but without being each other’s roadblocks. Life’s journey will have enough of those.
“Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter.” —Izaak Walton
There is beauty in falling apart.
You will finally see the gorgeous pieces
those with the blessing of knowing you
already witness and stand in awe of.
One by one, bit by bit, you’ll smile
when you pick up your joy, feel warmth
when you pick up your love, feel uplifted
when you pick up your strength, feel whole
when you pick up your faith and truth.
Keep going, keep picking up the pieces.
No matter how long it takes because
every single piece of you is pure magic.
Maybe you needed to fall apart to see it.
“Sometimes falling apart if the bravest act of all.” –Sarah Hackley
I don’t ever want to possess you, pick you like a flower, or put you in a jar like a firefly just because I admire your light. That wouldn’t be fair to your existence if I truly care about you, and I do. My hope is to experience you for a very long time. But within that very hope lies my challenge. I must consciously be in the now of you instead of letting my ego create fears that whisk me away into stories of an end that is not here, near and may never come.
“Ermias said you can’t possess people, you can only experience them. And I’ m so grateful I got to experience such a man.” -Lauren London
I know that I’m a great person.
I love me. I’m a pretty dope soul.
But special is something I’ve never
been called or been able to
identify with until now and
I don’t know how to explain the way
I feel when you say it with such conviction.
It’s like you’re taking the wings I forgot I had, gently spreading them wide,
and encouraging me to fly.
“Butterflies don’t know the color of their wings, but human eyes know how beautiful it is. Likewise, you don’t know how good you are, but others can see that you are special.” -Unknown
Today I wanted to be left alone. I wanted to turn off my phone and just disconnect. I kept feeling waves of sadness I wanted to embrace. I wanted to provide myself the space to feel, to cry, to pray. So I put on some gospel music to let my spirit talk to God for me. I cried but didn’t feel better after. I felt like there was just so much more to pour out. I just couldn’t find the stillness to do so though my chest was on the brink of heaving. I decided to do some housekeeping then turned my phone back on. Thirty-four texts greeted me from friends and family about nothing in particular. I replied to everyone robotically. Even sending laughing emojis when a smile never formed. I don’t wish to talk to anyone, I simply don’t have the words. I just want to finally feel this bellowing cry that’s brimming so I can process and push forward. Sadness is a normal part of life. It’s healthy to cry, to feel. It’s when we force these feelings away that they become harmful to our existence and those around us.
“Some days are just bad days, that’s all. You have to experience sadness to know happiness, and I remind myself that not every day is going to be a good day, that’s just the way it is!.” – Dita Von Teese