It’s OK to say NO after he finally says yes.
It shouldn’t have taken years to see your value.
You don’t have to go through tons of bullshit
just to be proven loyal, deserving or otherwise.
You were more than enough from day one, sis.
Whether or not I love you
isn’t the problem.
I love you more than
you love yourself
and that’s the issue.
You are fierce, sis!
Go do that thing.
If anyone tries to stop you,
embed your paws ferociously
and let it ROAR!
I promise not to smother you
with the kind of love I desire.
I’ll give only the love you require.
The same love outlined within the
blueprint to your soul.
So teach me just how to love you.
You’re unhappy more often than not. What are you holding on to? Flashes of false effort that only lends false hope? It’s not real. The way you feel is evident in your actions. The way he feels is evident in his lack of actions. How much longer are you going to let him use you? He doesn’t WANT you. May not even like you but seems to need you. Needs all that you give so freely. It’s been years and all he gives you are new reasons why he refuses to commit. Then tells you he loves you so you’d hold on just a little longer. Long enough for him to find who he truly wants. Then tell you it’s your fault it didn’t work because you were too this or too that. Beautiful, you must activate your worth. It’s not enough to just know it.