That don’t want get off the phone,
Thinking about you 24/7,
Cant wait to see you but when I do
Its just not long enough type of feeling…
I just need to be in his presence right now.
Laugh at his sarcasm, feel butterflies when
He merely smiles in my direction
And get lost in the aroma of his essence.
Closed my eyes and kept thinking of you.
I wanted to say this before I doze off.
I like the comfort you provide.
Being myself and expressing the thoughts
that reveal my ability to be selfish,
or painting myself in a not so good light,
or sharing my fears with you,
comes with ease, no effort, nothing forced.
Thus far, it’s what I find most attractive.
I like you more than I did yesterday.
I fear thunderstorms because of
the unpredictable noise and chaos.
I also fear the aftermath…
Fresh starts, new beginnings.
Last night I experienced a thunderstorm.
Butterflies…
haven’t felt them in quite some time
Found myself continuously sabotaging
potential relationships simply because
I compared them all to you.
I yearned for the authentic chemistry we shared
minus the infidelity.
Realized at some point I’d have to master your trade
and no longer consider your feelings
as you so easily did with mine.
Your words always drew me back in
But your unwavering actions has led me astray.
Well I found that chemistry we once shared in another
I forgot how beautiful the feeling was, is..
Now I’m basking in the warmth and joy
of something we once shared.
Don’t pick me.
Water me, adore me, care for me
Admire me, love me, touch me
Stroke me, hold me momentarily
Now let go, before you hurt me.