Lose

Interesting how we seem to find ourselves when we lose people.
Why do we find our rhythm at the end of relationships?
Because we also lose ourselves before losing that person.
The key is to never lose your rhythm while coexisting and it’s possible.
You just have hold onto you a bit harder than to you hold onto them.

Every

Every. single. one. of. them.
Thought I’d never leave.
Every. single. one. of. them.
Have regretted the day I left.
Every. single. one. of. them.
Took advantage of my kind love.
Every. single. one. of. them.
Treated me like I was replaceable.
Every. single. one. of. them.
Tried desperately to win me back.
Every. single. one. of. them.
Desired me, admired me, loved me.
Every. single. one. of. them.
Couldn’t love me all the way through.
Are. you. one. of. them. too?

Why

Why did we ruin us by thinking?
Why didn’t we just continue to feel?!
Now every text is calculated and
to be honest I’m terrible at math!
Trying to fill the spaces you occupied
just days ago is emotionally laboring.
I want to go back to the moments of tranquil
intimacy we shared that felt so easy.
Like just laying across your lap or chest
as we vibe to our mutual love of music.
Or laughing uncontrollably to some
corney joke only you and I find funny.
Why did we ruin us by thinking?
Why didn’t we just continue to feel?!