I’m always weary of men
who call me ‘babe’ and ‘baby’
long before I even earned
such an affectionate title.
Month: May 2020
Bones
I’m very observant and often quiet.
Some mistake that for weakness.
But I’m kinda like a bone collector,
gathering the bones you drop over time.
Then one day I’ll piece them all together,
finally see you’re not for me and leave.
Quotes for the Soul: Cry
Today I wanted to be left alone. I wanted to turn off my phone and just disconnect. I kept feeling waves of sadness I wanted to embrace. I wanted to provide myself the space to feel, to cry, to pray. So I put on some gospel music to let my spirit talk to God for me. I cried but didn’t feel better after. I felt like there was just so much more to pour out. I just couldn’t find the stillness to do so though my chest was on the brink of heaving. I decided to do some housekeeping then turned my phone back on. Thirty-four texts greeted me from friends and family about nothing in particular. I replied to everyone robotically. Even sending laughing emojis when a smile never formed. I don’t wish to talk to anyone, I simply don’t have the words. I just want to finally feel this bellowing cry that’s brimming so I can process and push forward. Sadness is a normal part of life. It’s healthy to cry, to feel. It’s when we force these feelings away that they become harmful to our existence and those around us.
“Some days are just bad days, that’s all. You have to experience sadness to know happiness, and I remind myself that not every day is going to be a good day, that’s just the way it is!.” – Dita Von Teese
Quotes for the Soul: Self Care
I know this “self care” vibe is trendy now but I really like myself. I really enjoy being by myself because self love could never feel lonely. In a perfect world, I’d turn my phone off for days and just zone out. I’ve mastered the sort of inner peace that makes me run away from anything or anyone that disrupts it. So keep following the “self care” trend. I hope you accidentally fall in love with yourself in the process. It’s truly a gift.
“Eat like you love yourself. Move like you love yourself. Speak like you love yourself. Act like your love yourself. Love yourself.” — Tara Stiles
Wants
I want a forever partner more than I want the
idealistic marriage we all get lost trying to find.
I want a kind love more than I want a lover.
I want someone who truly loves themselves
because I’ve learned one can only love me
to the extent they honestly love themselves.